I think this is all the more difficult in the Autocephalous Catholic world. Because of our independence, the sky is the limit on what we want and where we want to go in our spiritual life. We have seen that manifest itself chaotically--clergy who have cycled through religions as frequently as we change socks. We also see micro levels of this--clergy who change within the Christian tradition from Anglican to Roman Catholic-ish, to Orthodox, and everything in between. Or, clergy who start and stop and start again parishes while creating whiplash among attendees. Or, perhaps they change jurisdictions frequently--hopping from here to there in contravention of the vow of stability mentioned above.
In typing these, I realize that I am not immune to the call to change. I have frequently waffled in understanding if my beliefs are Old Catholic or Western Orthodox. I struggle between these two poles because my deep commitment to the Western liturgical tradition while being called to the theology and mystical understanding of Orthodoxy. I have found, in myself, a way to nurture both, albeit sometimes confusingly. Fortunately, the founder of my tradition lived in this same confusing place, so I am in good company.
As I have written before frequently and emphatically, there is no good name for us in this little world. We seem to swing between being accused of schism, imitation, and innovation. So, we live in a gray area. However, despite this we are called to "keep at it" as much as we can. This also has implications in our own worshiping communities. Not planning ahead can lead to starting and stopping liturgical plans and programs, which in turn creates confusion among those to whom we minister.
Another caveat is that I am not stating that it is ok to stay in a situation where, in good conscience, we cannot stay due to feeling abused or conflicted. Unfortunately, there are plenty of stories of bad jurisdictional experiences in our tradition (although the same can be said for mainstream churches). However, constantly hopping around or rapid changes do not benefit us and the people we serve. Consider the person who digs a well only superficially and gives up. If they but only dug a bit deeper, they would have found their treasure: water.
I have a very dear friend who has labored at his parish for many years. Unfortunately, the response has been low but he persists nonetheless because he knows the importance of what he does. I admire him so much because I have been in the same place, laboring consistently and working for growth. His little group continues to meet despite, what I might imagine, is some disappointment and frustration but also hope. Yet, people know he is there and visitors come. He is consistent and present. May we all be so, too.
“Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.” - Saint Augustine
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